I've gained quite a bit of weight.
This is embarrassing.
I'm at 114 pounds now. My fault, all my fault.
I apologize for being off for a little while, not being here for y'all. I'm back now.
I had 700 calories+ today and 1200+ yesterday so for the next three days I'll be having -200 calories?
Good luck with that.
I'll be making a separate non-TW post later. About non-TW things. Happy things. Sad things. Happier things that aren't related to my weight.
I feel sad about my body.
I don't want to feel this way anymore.
Many times over I said that I'd try and I failed.
*shrugs* I don't suppose trying again could hurt.
I was surprised yesterday to find out that my paternal cousin, who I actually wasn't very close with (she is nineteen - twenty maybe? She always smiled a lot) had depression, and had it since she was fifteen. I'm sorry to hear that. She always seemed cheerful to me. I was pretty pissed off that my parents joked about it. My mother explained to me that it was their way of being positive. Well, fuck being positive.
Love,
Christie
I'm sorry to hear about your cousin expect. Sometimes it's the people you least expect.
ReplyDeleteI joke about my mental health issues with my family because it is our way of coping, but it's different when others joke about someone else :-/
Please don't let a few pounds get you down. You're beautiful and precious just as you are.
<3
xx