Hey. How is everyone, if anyone is still out there?
I'm not planning on updating often, but I still check in on blogs every so often so I thought I'd do a little post here. Maybe I'll do it yearly, who knows.
I'm alive, 21, and currently pretty bad into a relapse. Learned to do long fasts and I'm on a 21-day fast right now (it is hell), lowkey wishing I'd get the rona so I wouldn't taste anything. which is an awful thing to say, but I'm an awful person, what's new.
After four years, I still haven't managed to keep any friends in university. I took an interruption because my mental health absolutely crashed in February and I started self harming again, but I'll re-take my final year in September.
On the upside, I have more friends online? Sadly most of them also have EDs (we seem to gravitate towards the same musician. I wonder why. Certainly not because he's bone thin.) Also, I finally changed my name to something I like, and started wearing the clothes I like. They help me hate myself a little less.
Feel free to comment, I'd love to know how everyone is.
Love,
formerly known as Christie
I'm glad to get a sign of life from you. Life goes on.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the name change lovely! The blogosphere seems pretty quiet these days, but it was a nice surprise to see this pop up <3
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